What to do.

I wish I knew how to put what I was really feeling to words. However, I don't think words could do it justice. It's both wonderful and terrifying. It empowers me and at the same time can put me in the most humbled mood possible....

Actually, I think Billy Joel did a pretty good job of summing up what I've been feeling....the most important part is in bold.

She can kill with a smile, she can wound with her eyes,
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies,
And she only reveals what she wants you to see.
She hides like a child but she's always a woman to me.
She can lead you to love, she can take you or leave you,
She can ask for the truth but she'll never believe you,
And she'll take what you give her as long as it's free,
Yeah she steals like a thief but she's always a woman to me.
Oh, she takes care of herself, she can wait if she wants,
She's ahead of her time.
Oh, and she never gives out and she never gives in,
She just changes her mind.
And she'll promise you more than the garden of Eden
then she'll carelessly cut you and laugh while you're bleeding,
But she brings out the best and the worst you can be...

It's so discouraging to be thrust back and forth between cloud 9 and heck on such a constant basis. It would be nice to be able to just sit on cloud nine for a while. It doesn't require a whole lot to get me there. Just being able to enjoy her company is sufficient. You know...Be able to study her uniqueness, the color of her eyes, the way she's fixed her hair, her unique laugh, the way she smiles when amused. Maybe that's weird, and maybe it explains why I've had so many problems in that arena. I know that for, at least, most of the guys living with me, the physical is what it's all about. I'm not suggesting that's not nice...I'm just suggesting that maybe it's lost it's value. I don't want it that way. I want that individual to know from the very first kiss, just how truly important she is to me.

I suppose it's possible that I share this misery in part to my own inaction. Perhaps I've done too much showing how much I care, and not enough stating it. I just find myself wanting to make sure it's been seen before it's been heard. However, I suppose without the verbal portion it's easy for a girl to say something like, "ah, he's just such a nice guy." It's especially tough for me to discuss if circumstances never seem to permit the action. Something like that is hard to share, especially if there are other curious ears...

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So, I'm doing my laundry, and realized i've never really done anything with this thing. I'm still not quite sure what i'm supposed to do with it anyways. The way of the blogger are foreign to me. I guess maybe i'll just write some of my thoughts. Not like I have any people that really follow this anyways. So yesterday i was reading a psychology book on Biocycles. It says that basically you have 3 different cycles. One is for Intelligence, one is for emotional, and one is physical. They have varying time differences like one is 32 one is 28, etc.. I can't remember the days exactly. So basically, the jist of the idea is that these cycles have up times and down times. and so for some days you excell physically, emotionally, and intellectually. They were trying to disprove it in the book.
I'm not saying it's valid, But i was thinking about how nice it would be to be able to blame days of incompetance, malnutrition, and my pathetic dating life on a time schedule. Sadly I don't think i can really do that. It would be pretty terrifying if people became slaves to that. Nothing would get done, or it would, but it would take twice as long.
So since i'm writing that off my list, what am i supposed to be working on? It would be nice to be able to find a special someone to be able to share the days events with. So far i've been doing something wrong though. I just wish i could figure it out. I've asked several of the girls i've dated what i need to change and none of them can give me an answer. The weird thing is that i'm still on good terms with them all to the extent that I can actually carry a civil discussion like that with them.
But...they aren't helping out much. Several people tell me i just haven't met the right girl yet. But that word scares me..."yet." Seems no matter what i do i'm always stuck in the same place. Well...On the plus side. After all this stuff is said and done...after the dragons have been fought....and when I do finally find that special someone I won't take for granted what I've found. :)

So, I thought I'd give this thing a try..

As far as the title of the blog for now...It kind of describes what I'd ultimately like this blog to be about. Stuff that exists, that few people know about, that seem to make the world an even better place. Everyone likes Little Caesar's 5 dollar pizzas. However, one day I was with my roommate Mac and was opened to the world of their spice packs that you can ask for for free. They increase the flavor by at least 17.348% And since we're on the topic of pizza, here's another thing that is terrific. Buy those cheap dollar pizza's at the store, cook them in the microwave for 3 minutes in the plastic and then when it's all cooked and you've removed it from the plastic, take that puppy, fold it in half, and destroy that thing with a fork. So..there is what I have for ya thus far. Hopefully i'll be able to post more bright ideas soon. lol